LOVE?????

This is what i deserved?

Is it? babaji you watching it? are you there?

Take me with u take me away... i dont wish anything now..

you have tought me to respect, you taught me me love.. why???????????????????????????

these things are nothing... 

Am i a bitch? wat m I? Do i fuck around with guy? wat m I? Do i flirt? Do i say bad for anyone? Do i do bad to anyone?????

what have I done? what have i done to my life? why me??????????????

Why i fell in love? for this? for what????????????????????????????????????

answer meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

do I have a meaning to live my life ? why did you sent him into my life? why did u made fall in love? why did you gave me happiness and snatched them away from me??????

I dont believe you now.. you fake you presence you fake ur love you fake everything

Is der any word called love????????????????????????? Noooooooo

you fake it... why god why you spoiled my life... 

now take me away.. take meeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

I dont wish to say anything to anyone.. I dont wish to be loved now... you just take me away

meri kuch aukat nahi thi toh mujhe banaya kyu apne.... kyu paida kiya hai mujhe...?????

meri life mien mujhe ab kuch nahi chahiye... na aap na apki daya,,

I dont believe in you and miracles and love

you create illusion in my mind and made me fell in love.. and made fun of me .. played with me...

you sent him in my life to destroy me to laugh on me to abuse me and I wont tolerate it now.

I will be the worst girl you  have ever seen. stay away from me.

I wont right anymore.

You killed my soul and shot my heart and i don't have heart now.

you call me bitch. I will be a bitch.

NOTHING IS AS GOOD AS YOU SEE

WHY???????

Why this is happening to me? what is written in y destiny? Am I really a bad soul?

If yes, what is my mistake?????????

god Please answer all my questions.. you have always told my soul to al down and wait and be patient. but for how long?

Kya mai apni numaish karti hu? Mera dil nahi karta ab relationship mien rehne ka..

I loved with all my heart with alll my loyalty but why this is happening?

why people have to change when relationship gets older... what should i do???????? guide me babaji..

you need to guide me warna mai bahut tut jaungi..

bahut mushkil se life track pe ayi thi.. ab ye sab kyu ho raha hai ???

ye choti choti khushiya jinko maine apni life bana liya tha.. why he wannna take them from me??

i dont  talk to any guy, i dont meet guys i dont have secret life. babaji you know itttttttt..

tell him.. tell him what i am. tell him what i belongs to.

how can you see this happening? I am no more strong enough to take this now. I am loosing this batttle of life called "love"

I feel to end it and stay alone now.

I dont wish to be loved....

BAD DAY!!!

21st january 2012, was the worst day of my life.. it ended up with lots of questions and confusion in my mind... when you love someone really madly, I it reallly that important to prove them he is the only man in ur life and u dont flirt around and talk to random guys...how do i make him believe that i NEVER FLIRT... is talking to guys is what you call flirt?
i am so much irritated since last night that i cudnt sleep nor eat anything which ll this crapiness in my mind,...
he is the only man i want and stay with... why does it have to become so hard at the end....
I know der must be some tension or stress in his mind.. he can be this rude to me.. may be just a bad day.. may be because its our first fight and i am taking it too seriously..
this is getting on my nerves and i feel like going away from everything arnd me.....
just hope alll ends welll

so finally few more days and studio J will be here official.. yes you heard it right!!!!!
I bought a place and my studio is under construction and it will be up soooon :)
I am just to excited as everything happened so easily and quickly  with waheguru ji's grace :)
Babaji just stay with me forever in any form.. when they say that god is within you and everyone around us.. i tend to find within me and see myself as a better person.. babaji thank you for everything :) you have bought a great positivity in me and luck in my life.. I just wanna thank you for each and everything that has happened in my life.. weather it was good or bad.. i have learnt a lot and I am a better person now..:)

studio J was a dream which will be physically here in front of me sooon.. cant wait..
with the name of waheguru... lets pray sa theek ho aur acha ho.. sab khush rahe, healthy rahe aur humesha babaji ki sharan mien rahe.. :)
waheguru  waheguru

Love

OKAY!! So this is the first time I am  gonna write about a guy!! Yess... This guy who entered my life and turned mylife beautiful and my heart upside down.. :P
In life when you are at that point where you see nothing can be worse than this and suddenly a hero enters and changes everything around you.. THATS HIM.. been Few months that I know him and since then everything is just perfect.. I fell in love with him.. and guess what? WE are together!! he is love of my life and just what i always wanted.. perfect to be loved.. I never thought love can be this beautiful and this positive.. but he proved me wrong.. he is guy with a gold heart and full of love and life..
He filled my life with happiness.. I have forgotten to cry.. all i have is joy and fun which i always wished for...
babaji, I thank you for this love.. I thank you for all you have done for me.
He is your best creation and I loved it.. He is always there to protect me, to wipe my tears, to love me.. :)
I feel blessed I feel complete.
Forget about my happiness now.. he is der for me.. but you fullfill all his dreams and desires :)
babaji just be with him support him and love him :) bless him and let him dreams come true.. and you better doooo, he is my Man!!!!!!

I wanna tell him that you r the best and thank you for everything.. how can you be sooooooo perfect?
Ummm i can see myself falling in true love and this feeling is amazinggg :) <3 nbsp="">
I donno when I will get a chance to tell him this.. But i wish to marry him <3 lol="" p="">yesssss He is perfect :)
I wanna live my dreams with him.. I wanna do all the crazy stuff i have nvr done, wanna do with him...
Wanna shout and tell what he is.. but bolungi nahi... warna hawa mien chad jayega.. lol
hahaha... I am soooooooooooooo happy :)

Thank you babaji <3 p="">

getting a great feeling about something.. what is this?

biji

biji...... I miss you :(  getting a flashback of all the memories I have with her...those laughters and her anger... miss her in tons :( I have never seen a lady like her in my life.. she was one of a kind.. love u biji.. always taught me to love my enemies, she says that it will end up turning thr hatred into love.. Taught us such good facts abt life which I want to keep in mind till i m alive. She was a lady with a heart of gold and I am blessed that she was my nani maa.. I misss her tight hugs, lots of puchis... and unconditional love I got from her.. I still dont know what magic she had. she was alady with so much of peace and calmness in her. Never in my life heard her saying anything bad about anyone.
Biji you are  the best peson I have ever came across in my life. I just wanna tell u that I wannna be life you. there is nothing I which wasnt in you or I wanted to change.. coz you were a perfect lady and I love you. You were a perfect mom, a perfect mother in law and a perfect wife. I love u bijaaa <3 nbsp="nbsp" p="p">Aap kyu chale gaye aise... maine toh apse abhi baate bhi nahi ki thi puri.. maine bola tha na mai subah arahi hu milne.. why dint u wait for me...???? i miss that hurt and kisses from uuu...  It hearts me when i remember that you no more..Its been a year now and I still cant believe aap chale gaye ho..
Ek baar mujhse baat karo.. I told u na mai apko aapki pasand ka suit dilwaungi... fir kyu nahi wait kiya aapne bijiiiiiiiii ?

Aap itni pyaari kaise thi? I love u biji....
Just wanna talk to you once.. biji aap jahan bhi raho khush raho...
kisses and tight hug to you :)
please come in my dream today.. i will wait for u..